Lightning Strike Twice

It happen last yr... right ard the time of Dec... a date with SS (the woman I like so much but she is attached)

It happen Again... 5 Dec... this time SP was my date...

The plot is almost the same... we chatted via SMS... one thing led to another... we had a date...

Sunday (3 Dec 06) :  On my way to work... while in the cab... I SMS her a joke... (cannot rem the joke now)

Me:   I'm on my way to work... took half day cos last night watch Soccer Match. U shake leg at home ar?

SP:  Thinking of goin the Sintex Later.. U go oreadi???

Me:   I hate Computer Shows... Btw if u got time go watch HAPPY FEET... they say it's a great movie

SP:   Watch with who??? All not free. Sianz. U working if not jio u go watch...

Me:  Sure why not. Btw u still owe me a treat leh...

SP:  Can. Oni movie. Hee.. U can dun go work meh? Your shift wor...

Me:  Er... I will take MC lor.. Very pissed with my boss for giving 0 OT this week...

SP:  Ok Set. Happy working ya.

I thought I had my heart set to go Aussie... so the entry of SP changes alot of things... Honestly, I only left 8-9 weeks before I fly... so what was I thinking???   A false hope???   Will she be the one for me???   Am I goin to forgo my studies bcos' of her???  

This qns are circulating in my head... makes me moody... makes me confuse...

Sigh*

This song kind of rekindle many of my thoughts... so sad but true...

My life is brilliant.

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Flying high

And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Small Thing can become BIG Thing

Recently, an small incident was blown out of propotion by my boss, RC.  For the past days, I became the talking point in the company.  However, despite earning the headline news, I was convinced I did the right thing.  Mr Fool or rather, Mr Foo needed a lesson to be humble. 

Incident Report

Line 9 was running Seq Mainbody for the past week and Sub, Ed and myself were tasked by RC to run the Sputter Machine. On 16 Aug 2006, training (involving 3-4 person) was conducted by Trainer Foo at Line 8/9 Sputter Machine Area.  At around 920am, I picked up my Mainbody Sample and proceed for measurement.  Before I left my machine, I switched the Machine Control over to the Rear to prevent any unauthorized usage.

At about 1015Hrs, after completing my measurement, I returned to my Line and saw Trainer Foo using my Sputter Machine. I walked over and told him NOt to use my machine as any unauthorized usage might disrupt our on-going Sample Run.  However, the response from Trainer Foo was rude as he identified himself as a trainer and claimed he was "only using my machine to teach new trainees".  He also mentioned he will not adjust any machine settings.  However, I insisted that he use Line 8 Sputter Machine, which is under Production, to conduct his sputter training.  Instead, Trainer Foo was not pleased with my response and took down my name.

At 1330Hrs, I reported the incident to my Supervisor in charge, RC.

2 Issues to address:

- Trainer Foo showed a lack of respect to all of us for using our Machine w/o proper authorization.

- Being new in the company, his ignorance is forgivable but his attitude cannot be encouraged.

Regards.

It was suppose to be happy news yet the aftermath left me dumbfounded. The words "pregnant" and "abortion" was circulating through my mind... "How could that happen???   I always thought Ee was smart enuff to take care of herself after so many failed relationships yet the worst possible scenario happened. Her bf, Brown simply juz shrugged off saying he could not "afford to hav a kid".... (btw, he owns a Madza RX-8)

Bas***d!  Bas***d!  Bas***d! 

To be honest, Ee is never an angel.  Blessed with Ah-Lians looks, she has lots of suitors but always seem to fall for the wrong guy.  All of her past bfs had one common trait : good-looking but Brown was the totally opposite (Fat, "Ya Ya" face but damn rich). It was clear that Ee was attracted to Brown's $$$ and the excuse of "looking for a companion" was lame. When I first met Brown, I was convinced that he was the WRONG choice but looking at Ee so happy, I just prayed that some day it'll work out.

Admittedly, abortion is the only choice. I wish I could have helped more but only offered my prayers that she will overcome this adversity and move on to a better future.

11 Aug (Perry's Bday) - Thankfully, Abortion was done w/o complications.

CrossRoad

I thought I had it all figured... how wrong was I  

Standing in the middle of a Crossroad... facing all the options available... My mind drew a BLANK... Fatigue, Stress, Frustration... all added up and made me feel so so sick of my life...

If... I could just... stop dreaming... wake up my idea... find my sense of direction... move on... Life will be more beautiful isn't it? 

Easier to say... I guess I need more time to reflect and re-direct...

Leave me alone... I will figure this out myself...